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today I want to talk about life in India...To be more specific-how local people reacting to foreigners, or at least to me :))) There will be not much new in this article for some of you, since I already told all these stories in my letters for you, on skype or phone :)..But anyway, every day is an adventure here, so might be interesting for everybody :)))

Before coming here I was warn to be ready to been watched, and I was thinking about all this as a good fun-lets admit, may girls like a bit of attention, so I can handle, I thought :)...I think I will even like it, who doesn`t want to fell as a celebrity sometimes :)))?..Just smile a bit, say "hello" for some people...Oh, and where was my brain, when I was thinking about all this as a fun?!!!...Now I can admit, that  the most tiring, frustrating an disruptive thing is not smelly streets, not beggars, attacking you in every traffic light stop, not even obtrusive street sellers usually inviting you by making sound as as inviting a cat(!?), because don`t even know how to thrill the customer.. No!..This is all I can handle, the only thing I think I will never will get use to is people looks...Or should I say staring?..If you think that I over expose all this think, and what`s so hard to deal with, just try to imagine that you turn into small street, and all the people in it just frozen!...Doesn`t matter what they were doing, they stop to watch me passing by..Or even better, they coming out from those small shops, even if there are some customers inside, but oh well, customers are coming to look as well...Of it`s bigger street or highway, it`s even more hilarious - road sellers are staring, bike riders staring( saw few times when they stared to me to long they almost crashes or even crashes to another bikes,  rickshaws or people!) , passengers from rickshaws are almost falling out just to have a better glance to me!..And so on and so far...So when even I would go out, what ever I would do, I will always be watched...It starts to be very tiring after a while, because it`s very different looks, not just surprised and positive, sometimes suspicious and even with a sparkle of anger...And why do they think I always have to smile for them and politely talk if they want to know my name, where I am from and so on...Why I have to waste my time for people I  don`t know and probably will never meet again in my life?..Or how I have to react, when I perfectly fine see (even though don`t really understand what they are talking), that people watching and making backbites about me in shopping centre?..I thought it will all go away after a while, people will get use to see me, and stop watching..But the think is that this city is sooooo big, that there are always new crowds of people around me...
Can sound hilarious, but now I really understand better than ever how should all those real big celebrities feel like-not even one unwatched and commented moment!..No personal space to think while walking in the street, not a single moment to look around-just want to run away as fast as you can!..

I was trying to ignore this-but it looks that it`s harder to do than I thought, then tried to lock myself at home-was even worse-felt so wasted all my time...And now, being here for exactly 2 months I start realizing one thing-people are not going to change, and I will always be piece of exotic for them...It`s me who need to work on changing my attitude I guess...If I finally want to relax and enjoy environment...
...And you know what? I think I am ready to do that :)...

Have a good day everybody :)))..and smile some more!!!xxxx